today was just another lazy day. lindsay left around 2ish and then i got in the shower and got ready for the day which was totally pointless because after, i read alot of gossip girls then i was listening to my ipod and i fell asleep. deffinetly not one of my more exciting days but yeah, my entries have been boring lately...so

anyway, gossip girl. i really like this book so far, but its so weird because you just get really into what everyone else is saying about one another, whether its the truth or not. its really not even funny how i've noticed the way people can talk about their own friends or people they dont even know for that matter, and make their lives or thoughts their own business. gossip is always going to be there no matter what, but you should at least think about what your saying about people your supposed to, or maybe even used to be friends with. really weird how people can change so much, and its always happening right in front of you, but your too caught up in whatever to notice it. sometimes change is good and sometimes i dont think its really even change at all, just...someone s c r e a m i n g for something--anything, and they cant find it, even though what they're looking for was always there...maybe we become too n u m b to see it, to scared to realize...and thats where change comes in...but really its not helping anything, its hurting everything...sometimes.

i know, doesnt really make sense...but those are just my thoughts and they dont really make sense either. enough for now. i love yous*samantha