well i couldnt think of a more perfect title song. right now, not everything, but alot of stuff fucking sucks. the only good thing i can even think of right now is that we have a 2 hour delay already for tomorrow. my mom and i just cant get along anymore, all we do is fight and argue and bitch at each other, which gets me no where. i keep writing things and deleting them---yeah because that really serves a purpose and everything. anyway i dont even know what im trying to say but i cant stand it anymore. i hate how we cant get along, and i hate myself alot sometimes because i am never good enough for what i want things to be, i hate how im sitting here complaining like a stupid little brat saying how much i hate things. so maybe my mom was right. whatever i dont care. you can all think what you want about me, but i dont know i never used to be like this. two summers ago i was, thats the last time i can remember. i cried more today than i did in a very long time, but maybe that was good because maybe i needed to. i was reading my whole entire blog last night and i had like 90 entries, and im so mad at myself because i would have had alot more but i deleted my old blog that i had for like the summer, cause when i got my computer back everything on mindsay was totally different and i couldnt figure it out. so the reason i wish i hadnt deleted it is that when i was reading through my blog, i realized that alot of things have changed and i would have liked to see my oldest entries to look back on my summer and how things were. its funny how reading back on the older entries, your mind just takes you back to that day and certain things that you remember about it. right now i need something. i dont know what but i need to make things better and stop being such a bitch or however i am being. the hard thing about it is that im not being this way to everybody, mostly its just to my family, and all the rest just kinda stays inside, but dont get me wrong i have my days. anyway i dont have the right person to talk to about stuff anymore. they're too far gone now to be my friend again and i dont know how i let this happennn. i guess i'll just have to wait things out and when you want to talk to me again, you know where to find me. i make alot of mistakes but this time i tried. i really, honestly did.