i cant stand myself, but i guess you can only smile and smile so much until you feel like shit again for no apparent reason at all. i dont know who i ammmm omgggggggg thats the worst part. i cant stand that...what am i good at, and why...why should i have anything how i want it to be. i put up with too much shit, too many people. i feel so fake...so not real. like do i acually live a dream. stupid songs. i hate them all. they are so...aaaa i have no idea. im going to stop now with my bullshit, talking like the idiot that i am so yeah im done. sorry if you acually read that. im sorry...im sorry for feeling like i do.